How Good Girl Conditioning Affects Your Sex Life

12 Aug

Have you ever wondered how much better your sex life might feel without all the conditioning you've carried since you were a little girl?

Not exactly the question most women expect to encounter when they're thinking about improving their sex life. Usually, we're given a very different set of suggestions: try this position, buy this toy, communicate more, wear something sexy, schedule a date night, spice things up.

And some of those things can absolutely be useful.

But after years of working with women around sex, desire and intimacy, I've become increasingly interested in a question that sits underneath all of those techniques:

Who are you in the bedroom when you're no longer trying to be a good girl?

Because the conditioning that taught you to be agreeable, accommodating, polite, desirable, easy to love and attuned to everyone else's needs doesn't necessarily disappear when you close the bedroom door. In fact, for many women, it becomes even more pronounced there.

You might know how to make your partner feel good. You might know how to read their mood, anticipate what they want and keep things moving. You might even have become very good at performing pleasure, appearing enthusiastic, responsive and "good at sex" while quietly losing touch with what is actually happening inside your own body.

And that can make for very disconnected sex.

What Is Good Girl Conditioning?

Good Girl Conditioning is the collection of messages many of us absorb about what it means to be a "good" woman. Some of these messages are explicit, while others are communicated so subtly that we don't even realise we've learnt them.

Be kind.
Don't be difficult.
Don't disappoint people.
Be helpful.
Be attractive.
Don't be selfish.
Don't ask for too much.
Don't make other people uncomfortable.
Think about everyone else's feelings.
Be grateful for what you have.

And, perhaps most importantly, learn to be wanted before you learn to ask yourself what you want.

None of these messages are inherently bad. Kindness matters. Consideration matters. Caring about other people matters. The problem begins when being attuned to everyone else comes at the expense of being attuned to yourself. When you've spent years learning to scan the room before checking in with your own body, it can become surprisingly difficult to know what you actually feel, need or desire.

That doesn't mean you're broken. It means you've become very practised at looking outward and taking care of everyone else.

When Being "Good" Follows You Into the Bedroom

Sex asks something quite different of us.

To experience intimacy fully, we need capacity to notice ourselves. We need to know when something feels good, when something doesn't, when we'd like more, when we'd like less, when we're curious, when we're not interested and when our bodies are asking us to slow down.

That can be surprisingly difficult if you've spent most of your life prioritising other people's comfort.

You might recognise yourself in some of these experiences:

You say yes when you're actually a maybe.
You agree to something because you don't want to disappoint your partner.
You find yourself thinking about whether your partner is enjoying sex rather than noticing whether you are.
You struggle to ask for what you want because you don't want to seem demanding or "too much."
You feel uncomfortable receiving attention or pleasure without immediately wanting to give something back.
You rarely initiate because you're waiting to feel certain that your partner wants you first.
You know what your partner likes but struggle to articulate what you like.
You find yourself performing enthusiasm because you don't want to hurt someone's feelings.
You continue with something that isn't really working because stopping feels awkward.

If any of this sounds familiar, I want you to know that there is nothing inherently wrong with you, you’ve simply become extraordinarily good at being the woman you think other people want you to be.

When "Yes" Doesn't Really Mean Yes

One of the places Good Girl Conditioning becomes particularly complicated is around the word yes.

Many women have learnt that being a good partner means being sexually available, accommodating and enthusiastic. We might believe that saying no will hurt someone's feelings, create conflict or make us seem prudish, difficult or undesirable.

So we say yes.

Sometimes it's a genuine yes.

Sometimes it's a maybe.

Sometimes it's a not tonight disguised as a yes because we don't quite know how to say what we actually feel.

And sometimes we're so disconnected from our own internal signals that we don't even know which one it is.

This is where self-intimacy becomes so important.

Before we can become more honest with another person, we need some ability to hear ourselves.

Start by asking yourself:

What am I feeling?
What am I wanting?
What feels good?
What doesn't?
Do I want more?
Do I want less?
Do I want to stop?

Are You More Focused on Their Pleasure Than Your Own?

This is another pattern I hear about constantly. A woman will tell me that she knows exactly what her partner likes. She knows how to turn them on. She knows what makes them orgasm. She knows when they're getting close and what they respond to.

Then I'll ask her, "What do you like?"

And sometimes there's a long pause.

She might know.

She might have a vague idea.

Or she might realise that she's spent so much time being a good sexual partner that she hasn't developed much curiosity about herself. She simply does not know what she likes.

This is one of the reasons I don't believe that better sex is simply about learning more techniques.

Of course technique has its place. There are things we can learn about bodies, arousal, communication and pleasure that can make sex considerably better.

But techniques don't help very much if you're not actually present enough to notice what you enjoy.

IMPORTANT: You can know every sex tip in the book and still be completely disconnected from your own experience.

The Difference Between Being Desired and Having Desire

There is another piece of Good Girl Conditioning that I think deserves much more attention: the difference between being desirable and having desire.

Many women grow up learning to ask, consciously or unconsciously, Am I attractive? Am I wanted? Does he think I'm beautiful? Does my partner still find me sexy?

We become highly attuned to how we are being perceived.

But that's a very different question from:

What turns me on?

What am I curious about?

What do I want to experience?

What makes me feel alive?

One is about being the object of someone else's desire. The other is about becoming an active participant in your own. And I think that distinction can change the entire way we understand women's sexuality.

Your Desire Doesn't Need to Be Justified

Perhaps one of the most radical things we can do as women is allow our desires to exist without immediately deciding whether they're reasonable, productive, appropriate or useful to somebody else.

You might want more sex.
You might want less sex.
You might want to be touched differently.
You might want to explore something new.
You might want to spend an entire Sunday alone.
You might want more affection without it turning into penetration.
You might want more beauty in your life.
You might want to be pursued.
You might want to do the pursuing.
You might want to lie in bed naked with your partner and not have it lead anywhere.

Desire doesn't always arrive as a grand sexual fantasy. Sometimes it begins as a tiny preference you've been ignoring.

And the more you practise listening to those small signals, the easier it can become to hear the bigger ones.

From Self-Abandonment to Self-Intimacy

This is ultimately the work I'm most interested in. Helping you become more available to yourself.

Self-intimacy is the ability to know yourself closely enough to recognise your own needs, desires, boundaries, sensations and emotions, and to stay connected to yourself while you're in relationship with someone else.

It's what allows you to say, "I don't want that," without feeling as though you've done something wrong.

It's what allows you to say, "actually, I'd love more of that," without apologising.

It's what allows you to receive pleasure without immediately worrying about whether you're giving enough back.

And it's what allows sex to become less about performing the right version of yourself and more about actually being there and enjoying it.

That kind of connection doesn't happen overnight.

It begins with noticing.

What am I feeling?

What do I want?

What does my body know that my mind has been talking over?

Where am I saying yes because I genuinely want to, and where am I saying yes because being agreeable feels safer?

These questions can be surprisingly powerful places to begin.

And if you’re…

Coming Home to Your Body

This is also why embodiment has become such an important part of my work. If you've spent years living primarily from your head, managing your emotions, anticipating other people's needs and trying to be the woman everyone expects you to be, simply telling yourself to "connect with your body" isn't particularly useful. Sometimes you need an experience of it. A chance to slow down.

To breathe.

To move.

To notice.

To stop performing.

To become curious about what is actually happening inside you without immediately trying to change it.

That's the intention behind Come Home to Your Body, my monthly live embodiment session for women who want to reconnect with themselves through breath, movement and gentle practices that increase your capacity to feel, receive and experience pleasure.

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And if you're curious to explore your own Good Girl Conditioning more deeply, I'll also be linking my Good Girl Reset Guide here soon. It's designed to help you start noticing where this conditioning is showing up in your own life, relationships and sexuality.

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Ready To Untangle Good Girl Conditioning Together?

Many of the women who find their way to me aren't looking for someone to tell them who they should become. They're longing for someone to help them uncover who they already are beneath years of people-pleasing, perfectionism, self-sacrifice and putting themselves last.

I help women rebuild trust in themselves, reconnect with their bodies, explore their desires, and create the conditions where intimacy, pleasure and a genuine sense of aliveness can begin to return.

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With wilde tenderness,

Sabina Wilde xx